Wednesday, January 16, 2008 / 3:47 AM
2008 my blog revived!
Felt so bad for leaving my blog stranded here holding my past frustrations all alone. Well.. I'm back now with a brand new look for my blog!
My new year had been very 'exciting' so far, with lots of 'interesting' people coming in and coming back into my life. My horoscope for this year is suppose to be good with lots of good prospect in career, love and life. I desperately wish for all these to come true! So far it have been the extreme opposite, but i believe that there's still hope cos CNY is not over yet. It will be a good yr ahead right?!
So many things happened in such a short time making me look and sound zombie and stone most of the time. Frens asked what happened but i really dunno where to start. I get tired thinking of how to explain and trail off not knowing how to continue.. relationship is one of them. Not that i am in one right now but its really scary when the past came back to hound u. nv ever get into a realationship hastily is what i can advice, especially when you are not in your teens anymore. I regret.. regret for starting it and regret for not ending it immediately when I realise that it was a mistake even merely after a few weeks.
Work doesn't seems to have much improvement and starts to get bored. I wasn't put into good use but loaded with simple and boring stuff.. how exciting! Even colleagues are put off with the things that i am doing and thinks that i shld be doing greater things. Well.. what to do.. I'm the newest there so I have to learn from the basic even though everybody knows that i got 2 years experience. But if the newcomer before you is unable to pick up fast you will be stuck there cos u are not suppose to be better. Ridiculous rite! But thats what the boss thinks. He is not even paying attention to what i can do. Come on... everybody is saying she is lazy! wake up boss! In this way i dunno how long my pay will be stagnant. I will be glad to work hard in part timing if its helps to achieve my goals in life faster. $$$..
Lucky for me i still have some support from frens.. they may not know exactly what i am facing but i am glad enough when there's someone there to share bits and pieces of my frustration. i have nv shared my life story with some of them before but discover that they are actually one of the good listeners. Mel and Alv have been the sensitive ones. Amazing how they could tell there's something bothering me even from a slight change in my tone or jus some small words in a sentence. Ch, YS n Jo have also became my active listeners. sometimes i feel sorry for them cos they have to hear me pour out, wonder if they ever felt annoyed with me and my problems but dare not show. Ys once mentioned its pointless giving me advice cos i already noe what i wanna do. is tat true or is he jus fed up with me? hmm.. I used to keep alot of things to myself. why? maybe because i dun feel like thinking abt those unhappy stuff so dun wan to talk abt it anymore, or maybe cos i couldn't find a good listener. But now i am probably really facing alot of stress thats y i couldn't help but pour out my frustrations.
I treasure some friendship very much even though we nv meet up that often or keep in touch. Poly frens like Nic, HW & YS x2 are the ones i am making effort to keep in touch n stay as a gang. The feeling when we can all go out together is so great. Like you have this group of frenz who can stand by you, united. There are also some people who are kept in my heart even though they are not here with me. Alden, you are my bestest buddy! I really miss you. There's alot of things happening here n i hate it when u r not ard to share my woe like u used to. Jo and minyee came into my mind once a while. They are my only and bestest gal frenz in poly! Wish u gals are doing good. Not forgetting my twin sis n gang in sec sch. Though we haven been keeping in touch, u are not forgotten. Shan's getting married! so excited for her. hmm.. actually most of the time what i felt or do for my fren is from the bottom of my heart. but i will wonder if my frens are the same. doesn't matter. as long as they dun doubt my sincerity. I hate to be misunderstood.
Whatever it is, y am i writing so much? or rather y do i have time to do all this? cos i am on 2 days mc! how amazing when i m planning on mon to take mc the next day, cos i was so sick of work, and i really fell sick on tue. Very sick. I dun even have to fake anything when i see the doc. psychological effect? haha.
What is you dress personality?
Your Dress Personality: Elegant
Your Personality:
You love everything that's classic. People see you as the quintessential woman – refined, poised and feminine. You exhibit an aura of sophistication, and your class and maturity is reflected through your style.
Your Dress Style:
Your philosophy on style emphasizes on understated beauty: Well put-together outfits and makeup that are timeless but ultra-feminine at the same time. You're not especially fanatical about buying the latest fashionable apparel, but you can be very particular about the finer details of your clothes: How it drapes on you, the colors and designs, etc.
My dream car...
Like An Angel
Someone who is difficult to fathom and to be understood, quiet unless excited or tensed. Imaginative, intuitive, approachable, emotional, temperamental and unpredictable. Acquisitive, dislikes nonsensical. Caring and loving. Good listening ear. Homely person. Not aggressive unless provoked.
"Successful people did not get there by chance, they got there by hard work."
Look at the stars, and not the reflection of the moon.
A 5-digit salary
Absolutely healthy body
